you are my alligator.

time. it is such a strange thing. in the month and a half since i have posted, my life has changed so much. ive certainly got the rest that i have desired, and hopefully shall continue to do so over the course of the next month before school starts. its so strange. i always am so eager for school to get out after mid-terms, but then when summer comes, i miss studying and school so much.

but alas, my time at UT is coming to an end. i thought [but did not plan on] i was going to graduate in december '09 with two degrees. i thought i could spread things out and take more costume designing classes [that i dont necessarily need] and design some more shows for my portfolio before grad school. yet, like i said, life changes. god's plan for me is being revealed in such a strange and almost, frightening, way.

david is going to the air force. im still processing through that. in one way im excited. he is going back for his second bachelor's degree in electrical engineering. first one in creative writing, the second in engineering. cool. and related. but anyways. that means for nearly a year, we will be apart. i think that is good. it has to be good yah, thats how god works. but oh my dear gracious, it is frightening.
i have a tendency to get very lonely. and hermit-ish. i am fearful for that over the next year. i know that i will have school to distract me and i love school, but for once, i dont want to be distracted. i dont want to waste anymore time being distracted. i want to live and experience the present. and love.

gah love.